Assignment 1.b.
Seasonal Salute.
In Just-
When the world is closing its eyes.
To protect from the frost.
The leaves have passed
Away.
And the birds have gone to the sun of the south.
The air nips at breath.
Lingering for seconds to spare.
The animals hide away in their hopeful minds.
Dreaming fo the life of light.
We sheild ourselves
The shadow of people yelling and screaming,
Pain upon the face of beauty,
Nothing left to do but cry,
So let the tears fall down.
Hidden nightmares of a baby,
The pain of his origin flows through his blood
The blood that will be shed
Shed upon the shadows
And nothing left to do but cry,
So let the tears run...
Think about it-
suicide is forever
much like love...
my love for you,
if i was to do it...
kill myself
would you love me more...
remember me more?
Do you even care?
Do you want to be with me
the way i want to be with you
I have dreams about us at night...
passionately in love.
Its funny what meeting one person will do to you...
Loving or tender;suicidal or homicidal
The blood stains on our sheets
once white and pure
now red with death.
I wake up...
your laing next to me
drenched in a cold sweat.
I am with you the one I love.
I close my eyes,
open them yuo are gone...
replaced by someone...
i sit here and wonder...
why such fragile,wonderful people have tried....
how they could have risked it all-
A moment of happiness in a lifetime
That one moment makes it worth while
I just hope we all can remember that.
Each and every person gets that moment.
And when it comes...remember:breath
Don't die waiting for that moment.
Live in that moment.
Capture it...
Keep it with you.
Safe...
Suddenly a moment isn't in a lifetime,
A lifetime is in a moment.
I didn't mean to do that,say that,or turn into that,
My mouth gets ahead of me.
Sometimes I stop to wonder who I am...
then I hate myself.
By the time I stop my anger its too late.
I did the deeds and gotthe pain for it.
All of this turns into too much of a debate.
I've done it,said it too many times.
Now its raining inside...
after there will be no rainbow
We'll smileto eachother and pretend its all fine
But its not always fine.
I did it.
I said it.
I'm sorry for it.
You know me.
You're good to me.
You hate me.
Or so you've said.
Tommorrow won't be better.
We'll say it is...
Pretend it so.
But it'll be another rainy ni
I didn't mean to do that,say that,or turn into that,
My mouth gets ahead of me.
Sometimes I stop to wonder who I am...
then I hate myself.
By the time I stop my anger its too late.
I did the deeds and gotthe pain for it.
All of this turns into too much of a debate.
I've done it,said it too many times.
Now its raining inside...
after there will be no rainbow
We'll smileto eachother and pretend its all fine
But its not always fine.
I did it.
I said it.
I'm sorry for it.
You know me.
You're good to me.
You hate me.
Or so you've said.
Tommorrow won't be better.
We'll say it is...
Pretend it so.
But it'll be another rainy ni
i sit here and wonder...
why such fragile,wonderful people have tried....
how they could have risked it all-
A moment of happiness in a lifetime
That one moment makes it worth while
I just hope we all can remember that.
Each and every person gets that moment.
And when it comes...remember:breath
Don't die waiting for that moment.
Live in that moment.
Capture it...
Keep it with you.
Safe...
Suddenly a moment isn't in a lifetime,
A lifetime is in a moment.
Think about it-
suicide is forever
much like love...
my love for you,
if i was to do it...
kill myself
would you love me more...
remember me more?
Do you even care?
Do you want to be with me
the way i want to be with you
I have dreams about us at night...
passionately in love.
Its funny what meeting one person will do to you...
Loving or tender;suicidal or homicidal
The blood stains on our sheets
once white and pure
now red with death.
I wake up...
your laing next to me
drenched in a cold sweat.
I am with you the one I love.
I close my eyes,
open them yuo are gone...
replaced by someone...
The shadow of people yelling and screaming,
Pain upon the face of beauty,
Nothing left to do but cry,
So let the tears fall down.
Hidden nightmares of a baby,
The pain of his origin flows through his blood
The blood that will be shed
Shed upon the shadows
And nothing left to do but cry,
So let the tears run...
she answers the call at 2 am
with a sweater over her voice
and cobwebs on her eyes.
do you want to?
rolling wheels and gasoline smell,
that suitcase in the back
with everything you could depend on.
do you want to?
the hotel room next to his,
with itchy comfort like freedom
and a seven-thirty wake up.
do you want to?
she answers the call at 2 am,
with a bloody knife above him
and gloves around her hands.
do you want to?
My Reasons, My Emotions by hellfirehuntress, literature
Literature
My Reasons, My Emotions
There are reasons why I don't show my emotions openly
Why do you think I was such a bitch?
I've been afraid of getting hurt again
I should be more trusting
But sometimes it seems as if,
You will be the one to hurt me...
And I want you to know
That you will always be in my heart
In a place I must keep hidden
Just promise me
that you will always be there...
Crippled wings...
Shattered heart...
Heavenly face...
Those of my forsaken angel
I'll gain his trust
Even if it tames me
Nurse him back
Back from his heartache
Feed him my love
Even though he gives none of his own
He holds my heart in his hands
I am forever his...
And he is mine...
Always...
Current Residence: Oklahoma Favourite genre of music: rock Operating System: *poke poke*brain MP3 player of choice: mini ipod Shell of choice: sea shell
Favourite Visual Artist
too many to say
Favourite Movies
LOTR,Big Fish,Grind,United States of Leland
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
*Strata,The Used,Moments In Grace,Crossfade,Straylight Run,Evanescence,Taste of Chaos tour
ummm sorry for the mass journal-age.
I've tried to submit some pictures but aparently they are not in the right format. I'll hopefully have one of my friends upload it.
Have a nice week
Oh I'm failing math! Which means I'm 'grounded' from going out for a while.
Vi invited me to go to The Simple Plan/ Good Charlotte show.
I can if I get the money and raise my math grade.
Okay have fun Bye!
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY
1. Kirsty
2. Shorty
3. akii
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. death of loved ones
2. rape
3. drugs
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. music player (music included)
2. journal
3. friends
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. shirt
2. pants
3. hair thing
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS:
1. The Used
2. Strata
3. Straylight Run
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. anything by The Used
2. Taking Back Sundays first cd
3. 'Punk Rock Princess' Something Corporate
THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. rock climbing
2. guitar
3. love
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONS
I did it...I ummm.... sent in My Crimson Beauty to a magazine.
Mrs.Hau said she thought it was one of my best.
I am so excited...o and i don't care who knows... call me a bad friend(you know who) or what ever.
I'm confident in myself right now.I'm soo tired of being tied down to stupid sh!t that I forgot how good it is to live. Oh but I fully remember now. ANd I can't go back to all that stuff...I loathe high school drama.
But now some of it is gone...This spring break will be a tid bit lonely..oh well!Its okay...cuz I'm going to Arkansas! (a-freaking-gain)
I hope my family get the house we looked at. HUGE! mom and I would have huge room